My personal journey involves, among other things, acceptance of self, others, and situations. Self-acceptance of where I’m at, and where I’m not. Accepting that where I’m at is a limitation, but also a point or opportunity from which to grow. A personal journey, by definition, is a struggle. This may seem like an unusual way of thinking, but I don’t seem to be able to cultivate significant life changes without accepting the reality of my situation. The often underlying struggle. Then again, just as soon as I do, things almost instantaneously begin to change – perhaps, due to my perspective. At least that’s how it sometimes feels.
New perspectives, attitudes or paradigms seem to bring new opportunities that I didn’t previously see. For a personal example read my previous post titled Continuum of Leadership Correlates. Opportunities can seem to multiply as I become more honest and vulnerable with myself about myself and my life. One important aspect of my present reality is that my business is not contributing financially as much as I’d like, and as a result, certain dreams of mine are less than fulfilled. I know that I am extremely fortunate in many other ways.
My business, I must remember, is a reflection of my reality, not a creator of my reality – meaning that at times like these, I must garner strength and confidence elsewhere. Meditation, music, and reflection. These might mentor me down a trail to creating my personal masterpiece. Perhaps. Whether this is true or not can be tested out. However, one thing feels clear and right. My business is not less than optimally successful for any reason other than I have not yet evolved personally, to a place or level of creativity and responsibility that is sufficient to reflect the level of financial contribution that I am looking for in this moment. That is, I’m not doing anything wrong. So, I must continue to learn and allow myself to grow, until I am sufficiently capable of having my business earn at a level commensurate with my family’s desires, goals, and objectives. I do enjoy the fruit of a loving family. Ah, focus.
But how does one create the right reality? One that will give rise to a financially successful enterprise? Is the answer just so simple – meditation, music, and reflection? I believe that I cannot force a certain reality into existence. Entrepreneurs might engage in the process of lifelong learning, best practices. As a Psychologist, I must engage my business as if I were a gardener. She works the soil. Cares for her plants with water and sunlight. But she cannot insist that her plants grow more or differently than they will. She must love them as they are.
Learn, grow, change, evolve and improve
There is something quite magical about creatively loving life as it is, on its own terms. I think that is a critical component. I am not presently irresponsible, but the type of business that I’m involved in may require more from me than I’ve been able to contribute thus far. It requires, not only great technical and business skills, but also a commitment to forging greater connections with individual clients as well as the business community and community at large – activities that I know how to do, but which are outside of my comfort range, as an extreme introvert. Patience Grasshopper.
My personal journey, at least for the time being, seems to be about stretching myself once again – sometimes I think this is all life is about – stretching beyond my comfort zone in order to live up to certain personal values that I’ve not yet sufficiently established. These values will be represented by a stronger commitment to forging relationships, both personally and professionally. Of course, on the opposite end of a continuum, we will potentially find patience. Even more, love.
“That’s it!” Gord Downie of the Tragically Hip once sung. We’ve got to engage in “a collection of things.” We’ve got to learn to love the life we have. Then it might change and become something more. Something not quite so “Tragic.”