My personal journey involves, among other things, acceptance of self, others and situations. Self-acceptance of where I’m at, and where I’m not. Accepting that where I’m at is a limitation, but also a point or opportunity from which to grow. This may seem like an unusual way of thinking, but I don’t seem to be able to cultivate significant life changes without accepting the reality of my situation. Then again, just as soon as I do, things almost instantaneously begin to change – perhaps, due to my perspective. At least that’s how it feels.
New perspectives, attitudes or paradigms seem to bring new opportunities that I didn’t previously see. Opportunities seem to multiply as I become more honest and vulnerable with myself about myself and my life. One important aspect of my present reality is that my business is not contributing financially as much as I’d like, and as a result, dreams of mine and those of my wife are less than fulfilled.
My business, I must remember, is a reflection of my reality, not a creator of my reality – meaning that at times like these, I must garner strength and confidence elsewhere. My business is not less than optimally successful for any reason other than I have not yet evolved personally, to a place and level of responsibility that is sufficient to reflect the level of financial contribution that we are looking for. Therefore, I must continue to learn and allow myself to grow, until I am sufficiently capable of having my business earn at a level commensurate with my family’s desires, goals, and objectives.
This is not to say that I am presently irresponsible, but that the type of business that I’m involved in, requires more from me than I’ve been able to contribute thus far. It requires, not only great technical and business skills, but also a commitment to forging greater connections with individual clients as well as the business community and community at large – activities that I know how to do, but which are outside of my comfort range, as an extreme introvert.
My personal journey, at least for the time being, seems to be about stretching myself once again, beyond my comfort zone in order to live up to certain personal values that I’ve not yet sufficiently established. These values will be represented by a stronger commitment to forging relationships, both personally and professionally.